im sorry everyone

i have fucking completely dropped off the face of the planet this past year. i really hate that i neglect everone that i used to love so much. it hurts to know that the people i used to live for are no longer in my life. without all of you fucker i probably wouldnt be here. you kept me sane and put my on the safe path, and off the road to nowhere good. i really turely hate what i've become. sure i like the friends ive made this past year, but no one could ever amount to the friendships i lost. i can hardly stand how disgusted i am with myself lately. i just need you people back in my life. the ones who will always know how to help me in times like this. you will never know how much i appreciate you all. i only wish i could call you without everything being weird. i need to find the time to put things back together. i really hate me right now...